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The Road I Must Travel from Jerry DeMarco on Vimeo.

she had excuses and she chose to use them
she was the victim of unspeakable abuses
her husband was violent, malicious and distant
her kids now belong to the state of Massachusetts!

they’ve been taken away!
they’ve been taken away!

billy was the bright one
tommy’s off his head
mother loved them both the same,at least thats what she said
i don’t predict the future, i don’t care about the past
send them both to DSS, now you had your chance
the posion took your babies
the judges took your rights
you can have your children or the night!
I supposed youve been a victim
though i suspect you may have lied
have you lost all ambition why don’t you give this thing a try
if you can’t and you fail won’t be the only loser
these kid don’t stand a chance with you in their future!

they’ve been taken away!
they’ve been taken away!

I thought youd be out of my mind
And Id finally found a way to learn to live without you
I thought it was just a matter of time
Till I had a hundred reasons not to think about you

But its just not so
And after all this time, I still cant let go

Ive still got your face
Painted on my heart
Scrawled upon my soul
Etched upon my memory, baby

Ive got your kiss
Still burning on my lips
The touch of my fingertips
This love so deep inside of me, baby

Ive tried everything that I can
To get my heart to forget you
But it just cant seem to

I guess its just no use
In every part of me
Is still a part of you

And Ive still got your face
Painted on my heart
Scrawled upon my soul
Etched upon my memory, baby

Ive got your kiss
Still burning on my lips
The touch of her fingertips
This love so deep inside of me, baby

Ive still got your face
Painted on my heart
Painted on my heart
Painted on my heart, oh baby

Something in your eyes keeps haunting me
Im trying to escape you
And I know there aint no way to
To chase you from my mind

Ive still got your face
Painted on my heart
Scrawled upon my soul
Etched upon my memory baby

Ive got your kiss
Still burning on my lips
The touch of my fingertips
This love so deep inside of me, baby

Ive still got your face
Ive still got your face
Painted on my heart
Painted on my heart

In a time and a place where I had to bite my lip
To not be crying
through the embers of the 2nd phase i had to
choose another way of dying
And in dreams they come for you
have they not come to see you too?
in silence flying through the room
Lonely thoughts try to conquering you

I want to help you but you never ask
And i want you to and i told you forever that
Why won’t you tell me why you never laugh?
Cause I’ve told you forever you have to believe in me

Hand in hand through the worlds I try to conquer
I have fate walking beside me
and through halls of forgotten bliss i have to
make a choice or die trying
and i dreams they come for you
have they not come to see you too?
in silence flying through the room
Lonely thoughts try conquering you

I want to help you but you never ask
And i want you to and i told you forever that
Why won’t you tell me why you never laugh?
cause i’ve told you forever you have to believe in me
Believe in me….

Why would you ever..?

I want to help you but you never ask
and i want you to and i told you forever that
why won’t you tell me why you never laugh?
Cause I’ll always hear you
I want to help you but you still never ask
cause i want you to and i told forever that I
would always help you to guide you when you’re blind forever and ever
I want to help you but you never ask
And I want to help you to and i told you forever that
why won’t you tell me why you never laugh?
Cause i’ve told you forever you have to believe in me

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Baby
It’s been a long day, baby.
Things ain’t going my way
you know I need you here
here by my side
all of the time

And Baby, the way you move me its crazy.
it’s like, you see right through me, you make it easier,
You please me and you don’t even have to try.

oh because,
you are the best thing
you are the best thing
you are the best thing
ever happened to me

Baby,
We’ve come a long way, baby.
you know, I hope and I pray that you believe me
When I say this love will never fade away

oh because
you are the best thing
you are the best thing
you are the best thing
ever happened to me

Now both of us have known love before,
To come on up promising, like the spring, just walk on out the door.
Our hearts are kind and are hearts are strong.
well, let me tell you what exactly is on my mind.

you are the best thing
you are the best thing
you are the best thing
ever happened to me

you are the best thing
you are the best thing
you are the best thing
ever happened to me

yeah, yeah
yeah, yeah, yeah,
now, now, now, now

Theres a shadow just behind me. shrouding every step I take.
Making every promise empty. pointing every finger at me.
Waiting like a stalking butler, who upon the finger rests.
Murder now the path of must we, just because the son has come.

Jesus, wont you fucking whistle. something but the past and done.

Why cant we not be sober? I just want to start this over.
Why cant we drink forever? I just want to start this over.

I am just a worthless liar. I am just an imbecile.
I will only complicate you. trust in me and fall as well.
I will find a center in you. I will chew it up and leave.
I will work to elevate you, just enough to bring you down.

Mother mary, wont you whisper. something but the past is done.

Why cant we not be sober? I just want to start this over.
Why cant we sleep forever? I just want to start this over.

I am just a worthless liar. I am just an imbecile.
I will only complicate you. trust in me and fall as well.
I will find a center in you. I will chew it up and leave.
Trust me. trust me. trust me. trust me. trust me.

Why cant we not be sober. I just want to start things over.
Why cant we sleep forever. I just want to start this over.

I want what I want…
I want what I want…
I want what I want…
I want what I want…

I’m getting…
I’m getting…
I’m getting…

I’m getting over it pusing past all the bullshit,
and getting right to the root of what the problem really is.
All the reasons for the misunderstandings,
the emergency landings on a plane headed for home.
It’s where the heart was living till it was without feeling,
and started revealing itself to everyone else.
By just packing up and moving out.
Saying it could do with out a barely
able, unstable, running off at the mouth.

So I’m tearing this and everything else,
between me and what I want to do to pieces.
I’m tearing you and everything else,
between me and you to memory.

I’m stronger now, even after everything that you did.
I’m still alive and kicking.
I’m better now.
I’m awake now.
I can see everything in front of me, now.

Now if you would’ve waited one second,
you wouldn’t feel so second the second I put you first,
it made the situation worse.
Cause you want to take advantage and control,
of the things that I manage to keep under control.
Like my happiness, my family, and all of my music.
You had it all. You chose to abuse it.

So I’m tearing this and everything else,
between me and what I want to do to pieces.
I’m tearing you and everything else,
between me and you to memory.

I’m stronger now, even after everything that you did.
I’m still alive and kicking.
I’m better now.
I’m awake now.
I can see everything in front of me, now.

What’s wrong with me?
You want to know what’s wrong with me?
I could ask you the exact same thing.

I have my opinion and you have yours.
You don’t have to like mine, cause I don’t like yours.

What’s wrong with you?
I want to know what’s wrong with you,
and why this doesn’t make sense to you?

I’m stronger now, even after everything that you did.
I’m still alive and kicking.
I’m better now.
I’m awake now.
I can see everything in front of me, now.

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I guess you don’t need it
I guess you don’t want me to repeat it
But everything I have to give I’ll give to you
It’s not like we planned it
You tried to stay, but you could not stand it
To see me shut down slow
As though it was an easy thing to do
Listen when
All of this around us’ll fall over
I tell you what we’re gonna do
You will shelter me my love
And I will shelter you
I will shelter you
I left you heartbroken, but not until those very words were spoken
Has anybody ever made such a fool out of you
It’s hard to believe it
Even as my eyes do see it
The very things that make you live are killing you
Listen when all of this around us’ll fall over
I tell you what we’re gonna do
You will shelter me my love
I will shelter you
Listen when
All of this around us’ll fall over
I tell you what we’re gonnado
You will shelter me my love
I will shelter you
If you shelter me too
I will shelter you
I will shelter you

I can feel it coming in the air tonight, oh lord
Ive been waiting for this moment, all my life, oh lord
Can you feel it coming in the air tonight, oh lord, oh lord

Well, if you told me you were drowning
I would not lend a hand
Ive seen your face before my friend
But I dont know if you know who I am
Well, I was there and I saw what you did
I saw it with my own two eyes
So you can wipe off the grin, I know where youve been
Its all been a pack of lies

And I can feel it coming in the air tonight, oh lord
Ive been waiting for this moment for all my life, oh lord
I can feel it in the air tonight, oh lord, oh lord
And Ive been waiting for this moment all my life, oh lord, oh lord

Well I remember, I remember dont worry
How could I ever forget, its the first time, the last time we ever met
But I know the reason why you keep your silence up, no you dont fool me
The hurt doesnt show; but the pain still grows
Its no stranger to you or me

And I can feel it coming in the air tonight, oh lord…

Welcome to where time stands still
no one leaves and no one will
Moon is full, never seems to change
just labeled mentally deranged
Dream the same thing every night
I see our freedom in my sight
No locked doors, No windows barred
No things to make my brain seem scarred

Sleep my friend and you will see
the dream is my reality
They keep me locked up in this cage
can’t they see it’s why my brain says Rage

Sanitarium, leave me be
Sanitarium, just leave me alone

Build my fear of what’s out there
cannot breathe the open air
Whisper things into my brain
assuring me that I’m insane
They think our heads are in their hands
but violent use brings violent plans
Keep him tied, it makes him well
he’s getting better, can’t you tell?

No more can they keep us in
Listen, damn it, we will win
They see it right, they see it well
but they think this saves us from our Hell

Sanitarium, leave me be
Sanitarium, just leave me alone
Sanitarium, just leave me alone

Fear of living on
natives getting restless now
Mutiny in the air
got some death to do
Mirror stares back hard
Kill it’s such a friendly word
seems the only way
for reaching out again.